The surgery is tomorrow, and I am walking around with my head bowed. This would mark my first (and hopefully only) ever surgery. I am a little depressed, but not debilitatingly so. I am anxious, moody, nervous… a myriad of other emotions one would feel when entering a haunted house.
I’ve come a long way from being that girl in the above picture who enjoyed running, and thought it was the most liberating activity in the world. Now it’s a painful curse that I do only if there’s a proverbial gun to my head. That doesn’t mean that I’ve forgotten how thrilling it was to hear my footsteps on pavement, or to have my body moving to the rhythm of the music blasting in my ears.
When walking up a flight of stairs causing as much searing pain as a marathon, it’s hard to remember that I once used to love running competitively.
To the Left is a picture of the last time I ran the Bataan Death March in 2006. Notice the huge honkin’ knee brace? Oh yeah!
My body is an instrument, not an ornament. It can climb mountains, run 26 miles, dive off cliffs and doggy paddle me through water. Years of abuse and not taking care of it, it finally broke down, and now I have to fix it.
If I don’t fix it with this surgery and fuel it with (good) nutrition (Taco Bell doesn’t count anymore) I may never get a chance to beat
Guile up the mountain, or go Skydiving and Bungee jumping with
Cowboy.
Then where would I be?
The goal is now this-to run the Bataan Death March this spring with out injury. It’s time.
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